Missing

Staring in a mirror,
of a bathroom,
in a darkly lit bar,
in someone else's house,
or a grimy gas station,
you'll see it,
you'll feel it.

The realization that there is something missing:
mentally,
physically,
spiritually...

What it is
and how to get it
is a mystery still.

Hopelessness will grace your bones
like a soft hand of a lover.
Your eyes will squint in shame and disappointment
because you think you know you are capable of
better and bigger.

You will wash your hands,
shake of the feelings,
open the door,
and let the next fool in.